New Beginnings

It bears mentioning that my hubs and I have started classes to foster and adopt. I believe 85% of me is incredibly excited and thrilled to be going on this grand adventure into foster care and adoption but... there's this lingering 15% that is full of fears and apprehensions to an unknown future. My most recent stumbling block is a concern that all foster kids that we adopt (Lord willing) will always want/seek out their birth parents. As I reread that statement it doesn't sound that bad, I mean come on it's only natural for kids to want to know what their biological mother and father were like, I get it. But as I dig a bit deeper oh I see the self-centerdness that lurks deep inside me. It says that I want to be the only one they turn to, no one else... ME. And the biggest problem with this is that I want them to be MY children, no one elses. Oh you might think come on Deb, that's only natural don't be too hard on yourself. Please don't encourage my sin and excuse it away. I want to recognize that ALL God gives me is His. To do with as He pleases. To give and to take away. People are not mine,  things are not mine. So, I just bowed my head and asked for God's forgiveness for my selfishness in wanting things my way. I asked Him to just keep working in me by his powerful Spirit. And oh the peace from forgiveness and a knowledge of God's deep love for me through his precious Son.